The I AM of God means that He is who He is. He is life and He is love. We participated in this identity before the separation of the fall. It can be ours again should we seek our identity in the union He has given us and not in a bunch of extra Jesus identities. Jesus knew His Father and was Himself because He had an undiluted union with His Father. Multiple loyalties produce confused identities. They insulate us from the purity of relationship that enables us to know God as He is and come to know ourselves as we actually are.
‘Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves their son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me’ Matt 10.37 NIV.
“Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God’ John 1.12 NIV.
It’s not uncommon to attempt to develop an identity by adding things to ourselves. But the more we are beholden to these entities the less we are ourselves. As Henri Nouwen realised to himself – the more successful he had become in his chosen sphere the less of himself there was. As I observed in an earlier post, we can get closer to who we really are by acknowledging our vulnerabilities and flaws and even by confessing to ourselves and others that much of what we affirmed as the truth in one part of our life was actually a delusion. Nevertheless it formed part of the path to the kind of truth realised in our present union with God and our rest in his vicarious worthiness.
THE I AM OF YOU
There is a ‘you’ that may not have been discovered even by yourself. This essential you – your real identity - is part of the treasure hidden in the field. This treasure is much more than generic salvation. It’s knowing God and knowing you. This inheritance - who we really are in the embodiment of Christ our life – is ours in the reality of we and our Father are one. It cannot be entered through the law, through a belief system, through the matrix of religion or anything that is not Jesus Himself. It is entered in the simplicity of Jesus as The Door and the Way.
Jesus’ parable of the sower was never a homily on rooting out sins. But it has been interpreted this way by old covenant practitioners in the new testament age. This parable is about planting the pure Kingdom Seed in the soil of God’s provision. It’s about not planting mixture, other gospels and the rocks of the law in the soil of our heart. Fruitfulness in extravagance comes to the Believer who becomes a son in spirit and in truth. We can have an identity in the fullness of the spirit of sonship or in the wisps of religion and rocky soil of misapplied doctrine.
You might be surprised at how many view themselves as practical and grounded Christians - yet for the time being - have missed the boat. As members of the Valley of Dead Bones they are phantoms of who they could be. With no spiritual body to speak of they await their new birth into the substance of Christ come in their flesh so that they can live in a unity – no longer divided between the knowledge of good and the knowledge of evil but alive in their unity in God. But the two have already been made one. Christopher Heuertz writes, “Truth is meant to be lived—in our everyday, embodied lives. But truth can be hard to find when it has been hidden from us for so long behind our personality.” (1) Did you know that we can be insulated from truth by ourselves? So that the rationalisations we utilize to keep truth out do not appear as such but as the sound reasoning of the mind?
Truth is a person who becomes us when we receive Him as our life. As we embrace Him we find ourselves embraced by the trinity and we are absorbed into their being even as we are filled with theirs. Not only do we live in the revelation of God but we live in the revelation of ourselves. We grow into the truth of our real identity unpolluted and unvitiated by false icons and false christs.
(1) Heuertz, Christopher L.. The Sacred Enneagram: Finding Your Unique Path to Spiritual Growth (p. 30). Zondervan. Kindle Edition.